Communication 19971
Maybe the reason why I don't agree with that liberation is because I've been there. There's more to it then just "oh he doesn't like me anymore." It's "he was the only one that cared, the only one that could make me smile, the only one who kept me alive." It's more than just "oh now I don't have anyone to hold me when I'm cold." It's "he made me feel beautiful when I felt more than ugly, he made me feel special when the world rejected me."
I was left with no hope for myself. None. Because when that special someone breaks your heart, you're left with nothing. You're left thinking "he didn't want me, who will?" You're left thinking "I'm not good enough for anyone." And maybe it didn't help that I was already depressed, but still. The statement that suicide is selfish pisses me off. Maybe it is selfish. But that's not the point. When I'm thinking of killing myself, I'm thinking about how everyone else would be better off without me. How they could go on living their lives without me being a bother. The world would be better off without me. I'm not thinking "oh I'll just end my pain by killing myself." No. I'm not even thinking of myself.
Maybe the way I responded to the liberation was wrong. I'm sorry for that. But this site is for speaking your mind, and that's what I did. I didn't say the person had to listen to me, did I? I said what was on my mind, just like you.
Oh, and for the record, I DID get help when I was depressed and suicidal and cutting. I talked to a therapist. Everything doesn't just magically disappear when you start talking to someone.
I have no problem with people voicing their opinions. But suicide is a touchy subject to be voicing your opinion on. |